This Feeling :'-\

I'm getting older now,

No longer a child,

Not yet an adult,
But a girl trying to carve a path for herself

Sometimes a silent tear fall from my eyes
As I fell on my knees and cry
No one can see the pain that filled my life
Because it doesn't show in my eyes

Sometimes I feel bad of myself..
When every bad things that happen between me with someone,
They must put a blame on me,
They just judge by what they see,
They don't know what I'm feeling inside,
They don't realize how much I hurt deeply inside my heart hearing their harm words,
I just don't really like to tell people about my feelings,
I always keep it there and it really hurts..

Why must put a blame on me?
Am I that bad?
They only hear her/his story but they don't even wanna hear my story..


Sometimes I feel like I'm living all alone in this world.....
But when I think about Allah,
When I remember that He is there,
That He is watching me all time,
That He is testing me to be a better person,
I always stand up again,
And this time I stand up again for the sake of Allah......... =)

Nothing much to say :D

Hola! *coughing* hurmm berhabuk teruk blog ni, lama dah tak update! rindu kat blog serabai ni..Haha, kayy first of all tak de time gila-2 untuk update niee, ni pon curi time revision tau..
Erghh, next week ada Final Exam! But alhamdulillah not all subject include in this exam. Only English, Science, Maths, Languages, Music, Geography and History! Tapi tu laaa, subjects ni semua la yang susah pun kan :\ Kayy, I wish all the best for all of my friend (at malaysia and dukhan) that will be taking a big exam or even a small exam ! Good Luck Guys! And please, pray for my best too! Okay, assalamualaikum. Ilalliqak (Bye) =]

Are you my bestfriend?

* this picture doesn't mean anything to the post*


Hye peeps! Tengah sedey nieh..tadi sy nangis je soraang2 lam bilik..
sedih bila baca status org ni..
dya tulis quote about friendship and blablabla..
tapi she don't even tag me..
dya ckp i am her bestfriend forever
but i don't think so she feel that
dya tag someone that new in her life and there's also
of course her old bff..
but i don't care about her old bff cuz i know she still
miss them, even me i still miss my old bff..
maybe dya tk pernah suke kawan ngan sy pon..
maybe she hates me actually but i didn't
realize that so far..
maybe she's not really like to friends with me..
tapi kitaorang rapat sangat kat skolah xD
i'm happy when we're together..
maybe she just pretend that nothing will change
after the new pupil came..but in her heart it does..
I'M SO SAD SERIOUSLY!
but i will still smile and just be me!
I LOVE HER SO MUCH XD
but maybe she not loving me like i love her..
maybe i just being crazy by myself! :'(

Am I need a BFF at Dukhan?

Hello!
I don't know what should I do
It is like this.....

One day when Miss Secret 1 is online her facebook,
I ask her on chat to open this blog because
I had write about her and others.
After she open,she said to me "wow!"

You know why?

She said "wow!" because when she open my blog,
it's automatically ( SECRET - SHY BOY ) song.
Then I said "I love that song".
Then she said me too.
"me,Miss Secret 2 and Miss Secret 3" she said.
Then she asked me do not tell anyone about she likes this song.
That's why I private her and her freinds name.
Then she asked me do I want to join their club.
I mean being their BFF.

My head is miserable !!!
What should I do ???
I have to be fair with Farhana who's very nice
and kind girl that accompany me break time at school.
She help me so manything.
I indebted many things with her.
I mean I indebted kindness with her
not money or things.
Allah said :

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, jadilah kamu orang-orang yang benar-benar menegakkan Keadilan, menjadi saksi karena Allah, biarpun terhadap dirimu sendiri ataupun ibu bapamu dan kaum keluargamu. Jika ia kaya ataupun miskin, Allah lebih mengetahui keadaan keduanya, maka janganlah kamu mengikuti hawa nafsu, sehingga kamu tidak berlaku adil. Jika kamu memutar belikkan, atau engggan menjadi saksi, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui segala apa yang kamu kerjakan."